A bed of roses & their thorns

The moe registration form is driving me nuts! And to think we human beings invented such online systems to make our lifes easier and convenient...oh my so not. What happen to those good old fashion pen and paper fill-up forms which will not ever have that dratted access denied or other technical problems. Argh...i have been trying for the last 2 hours since i woke up in the morning to register. So sianz so tired. Ok now i juz have to wait for half an hour for the problem to hopefully solve itself or the next alternative is gg down to moe itself and get my form done once and for all!!! Rawr. But i must say that the customer svs people are ultra nice and patient...who noes how many times i have been calling moe man.

*breathe* ha i can't wait for year 2006:) Yup i think i have had tt heading before...sorry juz really like change, time...blah blah. Yay, i mean this year i did look forward to 2005 but wuz also filled with trepidation at the awaiting A levels...now i guess im a little excited yet scared abt that huge world out there and all it's possiblities. Ha...i did have many plans for the future but now only when im juz abt to act on them do i realise how difficult it is to fulfil them.

I wuz greatly inspired by this RD article whereby all these great people went against the odds and all the discouragement from sceptics to achieve their dreams...and i wonder if this is juz the secular view of man. That we can do all things if we juz keep at it with all determination and go forth against all the setbacks towards that goal. Yet, i dunno, the Christian mindset isn't like that right? I always thought that if it is the will of our Father...there will be a way...yet i guess not without setbacks. But what if we keep trying to achieve our goal and ignore all the negative signs tt stand in our way...what if such signs are u noe red lights that say...No you cannot do this? So would be wrong if u juz keep on gg despite all the setbacks?

Hmmm... i prefer the secular view actually in all honesty...it seems so well right...that u keep gg. I guess we can only trust tt He too knows our desires hopes and dreams and as we draw closer to Him we too can know and have our wills drawn aligned to His:)

Oh yes and Chronicles of Narnia is great! I m greatly reminded abt the Lord through the books:)

You know i think it's harder to stick to keeping a blog once school is over...there seems to be so much more to do with one's life then typing out one's thoughts in a blog. But oh well...i have had alot to think about during these past few days. I went to a fren's church camp...and well i realised that not only are there divisions in the secular form of family but also in the Christian form. There are many different denominations in the Christian family with different beliefs and it gave me a huge headache during my course in their church.

Sigh...really if i believed in what their church advocates it's like excavating the ground which i stood upon for years and what about my personal experience with God and all the miracles, sights and wonders that i have seen Him done in my church. So there you have it 2 opposing views and only one truth. I wuz confused beyond confused. Of course i tried to be objective but i really couldn't discount my personal experience...and it made me depressed as to y the Lord allowed such a misunderstanding of His word...because both relied on His word as a basis of how each church works.

The thing is i tried my best to be objective...i wrote out all the reasons as to why this church believed in a certain way, and then went back to ask my own cell leader...i must say...the arguments can be flipped. I am so torn, i mean the duration spent in my fren's church has assimilated me to another way of worship which i have grown to appreciate and also to lead me to c the power in His word. Yet deep in me this conviction on the beliefs i harboured for years cannot be forgotten.

Yet something that my cell leader said struck me. He said I may not know God's word as well but i spend more time knowing my Lord...So by knowing Him I have better knowledge of the word then if I juz study the word on it's own. It's like if you know your Dad well enough you would understand his lingo...you would understand his thoughts for you as the child.

Hmmm...i still have my doubts but i think this experienced has been a blessing in disguise. Despite all the pain initially i have to say that i have grown and now im more determined to live my life for the Father:)

Whee..i finally did finish prom shopping at the expense of my poor leg nerves that r killing me. Ergh after 5 days my cartilage still hurts...oh dear and people are scaring me that i can go blind if there is infection. OOh...i hope i don't go blind...but yeah i have heard abt such a possibility. Ok nvm i shall give my poor ear a couple more wks before i go check with a doctor:)

I lurve weddings:) Lurrvve weddings it's so great to attend them, of course mayb that's why i have fantasies of being a wedding planner...whee i would create diff themes for people so fun:)Haha. We attended one of our teacher's wedding today, it wuz sweet.

I really agree with the groom, the sweetness of reconciliation is indeed wonderful. Not juz u noe lovers and all but family and frens. Juz yesterday i had the hugest fight with my sis...it wuz horrid. But im glad tt we have forgiven each other...from promising to never b in the same room as each other yesterday to deciding to watch America's Sweetheart later tonight, what a diff. Yeah, reconciliation is sweet.

ok time to go pack for camp now:) It's 23 days to CCChrristmas and counting...wheee...