A bed of roses & their thorns

silent trepidation as the truth draws near...
the finality in things, yet there is more to life most definitely.
Just a wrapping up of sorts, yet, an unwrapping of sorts--to reveal.
im scared. Nervous, trying to trust but it's really hard.

You reap what you sow, but sometimes...you don't.
the brutal unknown.
I wish i really had more faith or,
put aside the typical mindset of s'poreans
the paperchase, prints of accolades.

Still it's more than just the pretty grades.
is it prove of effort? worth?
I don't know.
It's self-satisfaction, self-gratification.

Beneath all the words of comfort, encouragement and wisdom
Beneath the inspiring anecdotes of people who chose the path not normally taken,
Beneath the shrugging off, the facades of cool indifference..
We all hope for the best despite expecting the worst.

So as the day draws nearer, i really pray for peace and strength through it all:)