Wednesday, October 12, 2005
gratitude
I m grateful. Grateful to have decided to go to ac despite prior plans and dreams, grateful for the way my j1 year went, grateful for all the people whom He has blessed me with, grateful for both the pain and the joy that i have experienced and all the memories. No matter what happens i will be grateful and count my blessings:) I think for anybody, that is the secret to happiness. Not circumstantial joy, but real joy from within. Yupz, my church is currently on sermons about the joy of the Lord. I really admire people with that sort of spirit. I love meeting such people, their joy juz rubs off u and u feel so much better with their cheery antics.
yeah well i've gotta admit it, im pretty much a circumstantially-based joyful person. I guess yeah, i dunno if i've truly felt the joy of the Lord. I'm not sure how it even feels like, so how in the world can i understand it? Most of my joy is derived from when im with people, or when i m in certain situations...then when they cease to exist...my joy doesn't vanish but there is the ebbing. Haha, im not trying to seem all noble, but i want this joy of the Lord because i think joy is such a powerful aid for anybody! I feel crappy when people vent their fustrations on me...and i wonder if those around me also get affected when i do the same. Of course they do. So, yeah this joy thing is really such a potent source of strength: Hence the joy of the Lord is my strength indeed.
I really feel guilty whenever i juz lose my cool and lash out people...esp family members, people closest to u always seem to bear the brunt. Anywayz, the youth pastor said that in order for all of us to gain that God-given joy, we first need to walk in the spirit, then e fruits of the spirit will be given onto us:) I'm learning...haha it's really ironical when despite being a Christian all my life, I still feel like a baby sometimes.
Anywayz...it's baccalaurete tomorrow!! sigh...it feels surreal man. Where did the year go? Im the sort of person who gets nostalgic abt everything. Sometimes i even miss objects more than people...wierd. So yeah...hmmm as i was walking out of school today, my senses amplified my surroundings...the bleachers, the field, e sports com which we don't ever use:) Technically tmr is the last day. BUT haha not quite lah when u think abt all the mocks n extra lessons:p Yup, maybe it's because of my newfound frame of perspective, that is making me not in the least bit stressed up for As. I juz think like everything else, it will come and go...what's the point of stressing out over it man. I would rather b stressed, then i can have a push and pull factor to study harder!!! Argh...I mean last year i never tot this day would come, but now it's juz hours away, hence As will similarly come and go...everything will come and go:)juz stating facts:)
ok i digress too much, juz wanna say all the best to everybody cheonging for the supposedly hardest exam we will ever sit for in our education life, and yeah, soon we will meet next year at around march...soon. :)
yeah well i've gotta admit it, im pretty much a circumstantially-based joyful person. I guess yeah, i dunno if i've truly felt the joy of the Lord. I'm not sure how it even feels like, so how in the world can i understand it? Most of my joy is derived from when im with people, or when i m in certain situations...then when they cease to exist...my joy doesn't vanish but there is the ebbing. Haha, im not trying to seem all noble, but i want this joy of the Lord because i think joy is such a powerful aid for anybody! I feel crappy when people vent their fustrations on me...and i wonder if those around me also get affected when i do the same. Of course they do. So, yeah this joy thing is really such a potent source of strength: Hence the joy of the Lord is my strength indeed.
I really feel guilty whenever i juz lose my cool and lash out people...esp family members, people closest to u always seem to bear the brunt. Anywayz, the youth pastor said that in order for all of us to gain that God-given joy, we first need to walk in the spirit, then e fruits of the spirit will be given onto us:) I'm learning...haha it's really ironical when despite being a Christian all my life, I still feel like a baby sometimes.
Anywayz...it's baccalaurete tomorrow!! sigh...it feels surreal man. Where did the year go? Im the sort of person who gets nostalgic abt everything. Sometimes i even miss objects more than people...wierd. So yeah...hmmm as i was walking out of school today, my senses amplified my surroundings...the bleachers, the field, e sports com which we don't ever use:) Technically tmr is the last day. BUT haha not quite lah when u think abt all the mocks n extra lessons:p Yup, maybe it's because of my newfound frame of perspective, that is making me not in the least bit stressed up for As. I juz think like everything else, it will come and go...what's the point of stressing out over it man. I would rather b stressed, then i can have a push and pull factor to study harder!!! Argh...I mean last year i never tot this day would come, but now it's juz hours away, hence As will similarly come and go...everything will come and go:)juz stating facts:)
ok i digress too much, juz wanna say all the best to everybody cheonging for the supposedly hardest exam we will ever sit for in our education life, and yeah, soon we will meet next year at around march...soon. :)
// posted by grace @ 10:32 PM 
