Friday, July 08, 2005

Behind that side

Behind that side of a person lies a multitude of other facets and faces. It's not a facade, that's different. A facade is when people put up a fake front, it's just that at times you know it's you but you realise that you behave differently with various groups of people. I used to think there wuz something wrong with such behaviour but I guess that's juz normal, for one to bring forth more strongly a particular aspect of him or herself as compared to other aspects. It's not that the person is trying to be somebody else, it's juz part of him or her to behave as such. See, so there is no one side of a person, one has many many multiple faces. So is that like wearing a mask? But what if one doesn't realise that one is changing 'faces' when they are in diff crowds and feels at total ease with oneself? So is there such a thing as a facade? Fakeness?

Maybe a facade is when a front is created for a particular intent...fakeness is still a subject of contention...who can define whether one is fake or not. It could be in that person's nature to behave in a certain way and people might perceive him or her to be fake. False accusations.

Sigh, but i agree that with constancy breeds complacency. With people who I know will always be there for me i take for granted most of the time, hence I don't treat them as well as people who may leave me depending on the situation. Which of course brings much pain and regret to my heart, for if they are gg to be there for me always, shouldn't I treat them way way better than the transient people in my life? Haiz. yeah lah we take things for granted. I know I'm always gg to wake up and see my parents everyday. I know my sis will be at home when I get back from school. Sometimes I don't even notice them as much as I notice my friends. I mean there are times when one does notice and read into people to see what their feelings or moods are at that pt of time...but I don't really bother when it comes to family.

A friend wuz saying that we don't bother with reading our family members cuz we know that at home, that is the most basic way of behaviour for all of us, whereas outside the home, we know that it's public so the public figure will arise in all of us and we tend to be more wary...so we read into people's actions and words.

Phew, thank goodness for the home. Truly, when we get tired of people judging us it's nice to know that there is somewhere where people don't try to read you and are totally themselves. I juz realise that I don't treasure what I know will always be there. My gosh, i really have grown quite complacent. If tomorrow never comes haha...I will regret not giving as much as I should...

Addiction...yet sometimes you need to get away from being with people for a while. Oh no Daniel I'm beginning to sound like you! Haha. I find it fascinating the human psychology...so complex and beautiful. The extent and capacity we have never ceases to amaze me. We need each other yet we need to do without each other. Independence vs Dependency. Ok ok, I'm seriously gg around in circles...nobody prob gets what im digressing about now.

Ok main point is...don't try to judge, because you probably don't know that person very well anywayz, no matter if you think you do cuz you prob don't. People are too complex for their own minds to grasp.

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