Friday, February 11, 2005
Reflection
Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day, is as if I play apart
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I can not fool
My heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
I am now
In a world where I have to
Hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know
Must I pretend that i'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
There's a heart that must
Be free to fly
That burns with a need
To know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that i'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside
*****
I juz watched a really inspiring show today:) Mulan. I really did admire her spirit. I wish this spirit upon me. This spirit tt keeps pressing on.
Haha yeah this gung-ho spirit... makes me feel like going to enlist for the army or something...like GI-Jane:)
But i guess there are many ways to embody such a spirit. Adversities and trials...neccessitites in life to make one stronger. That's what I feel. When life gives u lemons make lemonade!! Haha, but tis juz inspirational talk...to spur me on. I know it's easier said than done.
I myself am finding it hard to keep being positive. Quotes and slogans...memory verses...i really need them to keep myself going. Sigh...to rely on such things makes me feel weak...but sigh it's tiring to keep trying to be strong. It's not easy to always be happy.
But really..i never expected a cartoon to inspire me! Haha...it wuz the part when whe wuz to be send home without credit, without honour, juz shame...i wuz so indignant for her at tt point. Still, she accepted it...but thank goodness she made the choice to press on and complete the mission she had set out to do. Thereby gaining honour and glory for her and her family.
Sigh...indeed it's nice to noe there will be a happy ending at the end of e line. I wonder what will be my happy ending before I finally go Home. But then again...i shd be like her...not make the problem my world and the focal point of my life...but juz move on because there is so much more to see and experience!
Indeed...I shall really stop thinking and trying to make sense of everything...sigh...Grace Grace...don't keep questioning juz trust. The basic and underlining statement. Sometimes it's better to know less and to juz focus on the basics.
Anyway...I really like tt song above...says all tt I wish to clarify myself. Is it vainity? To want to look into the mirror and see something tt is of worth? Is it? Sigh vainity of vainities...tis all vainity.
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day, is as if I play apart
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I can not fool
My heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
I am now
In a world where I have to
Hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know
Must I pretend that i'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
There's a heart that must
Be free to fly
That burns with a need
To know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that i'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside
*****
I juz watched a really inspiring show today:) Mulan. I really did admire her spirit. I wish this spirit upon me. This spirit tt keeps pressing on.
Haha yeah this gung-ho spirit... makes me feel like going to enlist for the army or something...like GI-Jane:)
But i guess there are many ways to embody such a spirit. Adversities and trials...neccessitites in life to make one stronger. That's what I feel. When life gives u lemons make lemonade!! Haha, but tis juz inspirational talk...to spur me on. I know it's easier said than done.
I myself am finding it hard to keep being positive. Quotes and slogans...memory verses...i really need them to keep myself going. Sigh...to rely on such things makes me feel weak...but sigh it's tiring to keep trying to be strong. It's not easy to always be happy.
But really..i never expected a cartoon to inspire me! Haha...it wuz the part when whe wuz to be send home without credit, without honour, juz shame...i wuz so indignant for her at tt point. Still, she accepted it...but thank goodness she made the choice to press on and complete the mission she had set out to do. Thereby gaining honour and glory for her and her family.
Sigh...indeed it's nice to noe there will be a happy ending at the end of e line. I wonder what will be my happy ending before I finally go Home. But then again...i shd be like her...not make the problem my world and the focal point of my life...but juz move on because there is so much more to see and experience!
Indeed...I shall really stop thinking and trying to make sense of everything...sigh...Grace Grace...don't keep questioning juz trust. The basic and underlining statement. Sometimes it's better to know less and to juz focus on the basics.
Anyway...I really like tt song above...says all tt I wish to clarify myself. Is it vainity? To want to look into the mirror and see something tt is of worth? Is it? Sigh vainity of vainities...tis all vainity.
// posted by grace @ 12:27 AM 
